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Feline Friday

 

As my Beautiful Bella transitions into whatever is next for her... I'm spending as much time as I can with her on my lap, her purr vibrating my heart as it has for more than twelve years.  It gives me time to reflect on how this wild, indelible soul has enriched my own with her unique brand of love, humor and energy.  Bella and Raina have helped me through some major life changes in those twelve years , and I have so many wonderful memories.

 

She had just turned two years old, when I brought her and Raina from the Bengal cattery to my home. The breeder had told me she was sweet and playful, but "wasn't much to look at". Which is why she'd been spayed and was looking for her forever home.  When I walked into that house, Bella reached out to me from the back of the couch and I swear I thought she was the most beautiful cat I'd ever seen... and I still feel that way.

 

She's also one of the smartest cats I've ever known.  She tries so hard to communicate with me, using different vocalizations in different situations - it's my own failing as a human when I don't understand.  She can open doors with handles, and is maddeningly easy to train.  I will miss her burrowing under the covers at night, resting her head on my arm and looking into my eyes as she purrs herself to sleep.  I will miss the way, only until the past month, she'd have "crazy time" every night... running around the house, tearing up and down the stairs, yowling and pouncing on her prey (her toys and my stuffed animals...).  She'd start play fights with Raina... who always finished them.  She'd meet me, and anyone else, at the door - and it didn't matter if she knew you or not... if you gave her a treat you were her friend.  I love how much she talks... she's a very chatty kitty... only wish I could turn the volume down sometimes! 

 

Those of us who love cats understand that you have to be invited into a cats heart... they don't take to just anyone.  And when you find yourself in that very special, very privileged place it's particularly difficult to let go of the small, soft, elegant being that is her physical home.  But my Bella and I share a unique connection - and her spirit will be with me always - and knowing this will be my last day, and last night with her - I'm trying to hold on to that thought.  As C.S. Lewis said... "You don't HAVE a soul.  You ARE a soul, you have a body".  I'll  no longer feel the warmth of her sweet feline form, but will always have her spirit with me. 

 

So long Itty Bitty Bella Kitty.  Frank, Raina and I will miss you terribly.    XOX

 

photoblog image kitties 13 aug 2012 (2).jpg

 

 

photoblog image Kitties Jan 2014 2 (2).jpg

 

I don't know how I'll feel in the coming days or how quickly I'll recover...  my apologies if I seem to disappear for a bit...

 

 

Feline Friday

 

As my Beautiful Bella transitions into whatever is next for her... I'm spending as much time as I can with her on my lap, her purr vibrating my heart as it has for more than twelve years.  It gives me time to reflect on how this wild, indelible soul has enriched my own with her unique brand of love, humor and energy.  Bella and Raina have helped me through some major life changes in those twelve years , and I have so many wonderful memories.

 

She had just turned two years old, when I brought her and Raina from the Bengal cattery to my home. The breeder had told me she was sweet and playful, but "wasn't much to look at". Which is why she'd been spayed and was looking for her forever home.  When I walked into that house, Bella reached out to me from the back of the couch and I swear I thought she was the most beautiful cat I'd ever seen... and I still feel that way.

 

She's also one of the smartest cats I've ever known.  She tries so hard to communicate with me, using different vocalizations in different situations - it's my own failing as a human when I don't understand.  She can open doors with handles, and is maddeningly easy to train.  I will miss her burrowing under the covers at night, resting her head on my arm and looking into my eyes as she purrs herself to sleep.  I will miss the way, only until the past month, she'd have "crazy time" every night... running around the house, tearing up and down the stairs, yowling and pouncing on her prey (her toys and my stuffed animals...).  She'd start play fights with Raina... who always finished them.  She'd meet me, and anyone else, at the door - and it didn't matter if she knew you or not... if you gave her a treat you were her friend.  I love how much she talks... she's a very chatty kitty... only wish I could turn the volume down sometimes! 

 

Those of us who love cats understand that you have to be invited into a cats heart... they don't take to just anyone.  And when you find yourself in that very special, very privileged place it's particularly difficult to let go of the small, soft, elegant being that is her physical home.  But my Bella and I share a unique connection - and her spirit will be with me always - and knowing this will be my last day, and last night with her - I'm trying to hold on to that thought.  As C.S. Lewis said... "You don't HAVE a soul.  You ARE a soul, you have a body".  I'll  no longer feel the warmth of her sweet feline form, but will always have her spirit with me. 

 

So long Itty Bitty Bella Kitty.  Frank, Raina and I will miss you terribly.    XOX

 

photoblog image kitties 13 aug 2012 (2).jpg

 

 

photoblog image Kitties Jan 2014 2 (2).jpg

 

I don't know how I'll feel in the coming days or how quickly I'll recover...  my apologies if I seem to disappear for a bit...

 

 

comments (23)

Elle est magnifique, j'adore ses jolis yeux verts.
Elizabeth Croston Buckalew: I'm glad you agree... I think she's one of the prettiest cats I've ever seen.
  • Bonnie
  • United States
  • 19 Oct 2018, 03:27
I am so sorry to hear this sad news ....I love the tribute you've written. We still expect our beloved Kippy to come running every time we open a can of tuna. She gave us so much love (and Siamese kittens twice!) That was 46 years ago. We still smile at all the photos we thankfully took. Am sending a virtual hug your way and wishing you love. Come back when you're ready. Love, Bonnie
and you talk about my prose smile
Oh, Elizabeth. 12 years is a long time to develop such a connection of souls. I can't imagine the loss you'll feel, never having had a cat. Please take care of yourself in these days to come. My heart is with you.
  • Chris
  • Not nowhere
  • 19 Oct 2018, 06:29
Oh dear, this is all rather sad.

I don't really understand why you are having this parting of the ways..
  • Astrid
  • Nederland
  • 19 Oct 2018, 06:38
My dear Elizabeth, I am so sorry that you have to say goodbye to Bella after all these precious years with her. I am not a cat person, however I am chosen by two cats that "I am okay" (and I adore them!!!).... so I know what you mean by "they choose you"...
I think she is beautiful and yes, I can feel your pain. These pictures are wonderful memories of her and she will live forever in your heart.
  • Alan
  • Great Britain (UK)
  • 19 Oct 2018, 06:49
oh dear, that is so sad to read (I'm in tears). It sounds like she is nearing the end of her life. I know just how you feel. I still miss my two after many years since first mum Susie went and then dear old Sooty. I'm too emotionally weak to get others. sad
  • Lisl
  • England
  • 19 Oct 2018, 07:47
Elizabeth, I know what you are going through. I love cats, and lost my two tabbies at the ages of 16 and 17 some year' ago. I miss them still. Stay strong
  • gutteridge
  • Somewhere in deep space
  • 19 Oct 2018, 08:32
After women I think that cats are the next most beautiful creatures.
excellent photo of Bella
I cried when we had to put our cat to sleep, we had her for 22 years.
  • Louis
  • South Africa
  • 19 Oct 2018, 11:11
Just this past week I saw a movie about Blue, a Red Dog. The father didn't want his son to have a dog. One of the reasons: "Because they die." Sigh, that is how it goes with these soul mates of ours. Commiserations and let Frank hug you.
You made me cry. She is my friend too though we did not meet in person. Accept my deepest condolences and sorrow. I witnessed every Saturday that she had a wonderful life with you. Hugs. (I have never typed that ending before.)
  • Anne
  • United Kingdom
  • 19 Oct 2018, 15:01
How sad for you, but how wonderful that she has enriched your life so much. Thinking about you.
We have read your very sad story Elizabeth, it is easy to tell from your Saturday postings just what Bella means to you and Frank. Whatever her fate is over the next period of time I hope it is peaceful, I just feel it is a shame that Frank can't be there with you at this very sad time.
I know how you feel. We lost our last cat last year and said we would not have any more. They become such a part of the family. Even now we half expect Kammy to appear when we get home.

Your Bella was a lovely cat.
I hAVE TEARS IN MY EYES READING THIS She is a sweet looking kitty. I a sad for all of you.
i am very sad for you Elizabeth and i can't see any way that you could have memorialized Bella any better than this prose...

our sympathy... Penny and ....petersad
  • Ayush Basu
  • Venlo, Netherlands
  • 19 Oct 2018, 17:44
oh, i am so sorry to hear that, Elizabeth, that was a touching bit of text and those are worthy images to remember Bella by.
A lovely cat, and wonderful memories - my Aby, Sassy, is similarly loving.
  • Harry
  • USA
  • 20 Oct 2018, 05:40
a sad event, good documentation
  • Beth
  • United States
  • 20 Oct 2018, 13:58
I am so sorry for your loss. She certainly was a beauty and I hope you will find comfort in the wonderful photos you have taken over the years.
  • Steven
  • Chicagoland
  • 20 Oct 2018, 16:28
Gorgeous photos of Bella captured here!! A very heartfelt tribute! My apologies for your loss.

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